... the good and BAD of a long stop in posting!

So much has happened since I last posted. Good and very bad.

Lots of Covid restrictions since the wonderful Italy trip last September, more Kundalini training (and graduating), lots of worries about my mom's health and finally having to say goodbye to her for good while simultaneously breaking my leg ...

So the fall after Italy slowly turned into winter with all the Covid restrictions of the second lockdown.
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​Towards Christmas time my mom began to feel her heart skipping again (she'd been having heart problems on and off for at least at decade) and needed to be admitted right before the holidays.

​The heart was fixed with new medications but on the day she was to come home she fell in her hospital and broke her thigh. Which meant being locked up in the hospital over the holidays plus going into rehab - we didn't see her for 7 weeks. No visits allowed due to the pandemic. Christmas was a bit of a sad affair, but we tried our best:

In early February my mom contracted Covid INSIDE THE REHAB!

She was sent home and went into quarantine with my middle sister. She enjoyed being in her home after all this time for exactly one week, suffering only mild cold symptoms. She got to eat her favourite meals, was pampered by my sister, called all her women friends and family ... until exactly one week later when she woke with high fever and breathing problems.

These problems increased during the day and in the early evening she was breathing so poorly that an ambulance needed to be called. She stopped breathing but was brought back by the emergency crew, only to be admitted to intensive care and never waking from her coma again. 
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I wanted to rush home the next morning, only to slip on ice in front of our Dutch home and break both shin and calf bone!

My mom died three days later, never waking up, but in the loving presence of my son, my youngest sister who had rushed up from Southern France, and her daughter.

I meditated from Holland during the hours of her passing - feeling at least a bit connected to her in those last hours.

On the good side:

I finished my Kundalini teacher training and graduated - via ZOOM, haha.

​BUt I am of course still not teaching as everything is closed down in this 3rd lockdown ... just maybe the yoga studios will open later this month.

So I was away from my job for 6 weeks, 2 weeks before the operation (with plate and pins) and 4 weeks after. 

I have started to walk again without crutches, VERY SLOWLY STILL - but at least my physiotherapist is happy with my progress. I am impatient and need to work hard on my "attitude of gratitude", haha.

​Being back in the office helps with the physical and emotional healing - but it will all take a while. So make sure to follow me on Instagram where I post much more regularly.