Afterthoughts about the self-challenge ...

… so I promised to put down on paper my (after)thoughts about the challenge. Well, it DID serve as a great motivation to be much more serious about choosing what to wear, so much is true. Instead of just slipping into a comfortable time-proven combination, I got more creative and delved deeper into my depths of my closet and jewelry box.

It was also interesting to see that some combinations really worked well (i.e. looked good AND made me feel good) when I hadn’t really expected that and others were “safe” but also looked somewhat boring –at least to me. Boring in that I didn’t really dare enough to make me look the way I wanted to look.

BUT, THE BIG AFTERTHOUGHT: after a while it all felt quite shallow. And unhealthy. Because I really started to check Instagram a lot to see if I had gotten more of those little hearts and I even got ambitious about the number of people following, going so far as to being seriously disappointed when that number fluctuated up and down!
It all turned into a bit of an addiction: checking the results of the posts time and time again. And regular daily picture-taking turned into actual work, haha.It made me understand how much work “real” bloggers put in to create their awesome feeds and it just took too much time away from my days in the end.

… and it also felt so superficial. Too much time spent on a basically joyful activity (having fun with clothes) and not dealing with more serious issues as maybe health and spirituality. Not getting around to continue with the yin yoga studies, not getting around to write in my diary and contemplate larger life questions, haha.

But the bottom line was and is the unhealthy fixation on results and the undecidedness of just how public I want my life to be. To get more likes I need to use more hashtags which means that I suddenly get a lot of strangers looking at my life. Do I really want that? I certainly don’t want all the men-of-a-certain-age who don’t post themselves but follow loads of accounts for unknown reasons. I made sure to block them, sorry. But that means even more time on Instagram to carefully curate the following … and no, I am really not ready for that!

So, all in all: fun and learning a lot about my personal limits.
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AND: Thanks to all you lovely people who have liked the posts!!!